I was chasing something for a very long time, for years, in fact.
During these years, I struggled, I was frustrated, I felt like I am losing, I was sad.
But after I got it, it was not very overwhelming as I had expected it to be.
I didn’t feel I achieved something. In fact, I felt empty with the question of “now what?”.
Now there was nothing more to try. There was no purpose anymore.
There was no struggle. There was no chase.
In that moment I realized, I was actually happy chasing. I was actually happy trying. I thought I was frustrated, but I wasn’t. I was alive. I still am. But in that moment, I thought I was not.
In the hindsight, the process was satisfying. The moment of achieving was not as I thought it would be.
99% of the moments belong to process or journey and only 1% belong to the achievement. But we humans, don’t enjoy those 99% and only focus on that 1%. Rather we despise the journey. We are always in search of some shortcut to achieve, so as to avoid the pain or effort in the process. Years go by and then we think we missed out on the moments. We didn’t live as much as we wanted to. We were never in the present moment.
The only way to live more is to be conscious, be in in the moment, focus on the process, enjoy the process. Because there are no shortcuts. Journey is inevitable. Its your choice, to accept this and start enjoying or despise the journey and waste 99% of life.
Happiness is in journey, it is in wait, it is in the chase.
As it is rightly said, “Happiness is a journey, not a destination”.